Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Back-up CD - What Will You Find?

I was looking at some old back-up cd's and found this on one of them. I'm not sure what it is or why I have it but I thought the words were quite good. Anyone know where it comes from?


sit and stare silently,
is she still a mistake?
did you see her thoughts,
open in her eyes?
she thought the same of you
didn't want to tell you.

If you still feel the same,
three words will fix it
tell her the truth,
set you both free.

You're not a mistake now,
she just lives in fear.
waiting for this day,
the day of doubt to come.

Don't wait to be asked,
clear up this confusion.
end it now,
she won't collapse and die
No matter what you want
tell her the truth

is she still a mistake?
was it only the distance,
the one that doesn't exist?
spontaneously you say this to her,
expect no questions,
you can't be serious?

Don't leave her thinking
like a tumour in her brain
wearing down her thoughts
just tell it to her straight
leave the sugarcoating
that she doesn't need

Don't push her here
in her mind alone
don't make her think this through
just tell it to her straight
set you both free.

Monday, February 02, 2009

Phone Key Tapping

Its strange how one minute you can be happy and having a great time and the next, because of one small thing, you can be feeling sad, upset and let down.
Emotions are things we can't control however hard we try.

I was out Saturday night, determined to have a good time because I haven't been out in ages. I had a couple of vodka's and was happy just watching everyone else generally having a good time. The place was packed with more people than I had seen in there for ages. I was laughing and joking with friends and catching up with people I hadn't seen in a while when I received a text message.

Now I'm not too sure if I've told you before but, my new year's resolution was to delete the numbers off my phone who I usually texted when I am drunk, and so when the message came up with just a number I wasn't sure who it was from. Then I read the text. It was just one word but I knew straight away it was from one of the numbers I had deleted. I was happy that I had received the text and I send one back.

Answering the text was a big mistake. After a few texts to and fro and one phone call, my night had turned from a carefree, happy one into a miserable, I wish I hadn't come out, type of night.

I'm not too sure what I did wrong or what I said that was so wrong, maybe a few truths, I can't remember, but it ended up with him texting me that I was annoying him and me deleting his number once again.

If you have my number you know me well enough not to text me if you don't want me to text you back.

I'm out again next Saturday but my phone will be staying home.