Sunday, May 31, 2009

Hope and Dreams

Have you ever had to make a decision that even just thinking about it makes you feel sick? Well I have one of those decisions to make. I know what I should do but just can't bring myself to do it. There is only one thing stopping me but that one thing is emotionally hard for me to take. I have talked to my friends about it and they all said go for it but........

I've been listening to all my favourite songs today and most of them are soppy ones and that has not helped the situation at all. I'm not sure what the hold is, although I know its there, that is stopping me and I know I won't be happy if I don't make the decision but I don't want to take the risk of being unhappy for a little while so the rest of my life will be a happy one. There is no future for me if I don't make the decision and I tell myself this each day but I still can't bring myself to make it. I seem to be living a life of hope and dreams but deep down I know I need to say enough is enough and decide.

I'll let you know when and if I've been brave enough to make it.


After writing the above I read my stars and below is what was said:

It might feel as if an era is coming to a close today, but it's really not anything that big. Still, your life is changing as you respond to the cooling of someone's energy. Keep in mind that everything goes through phases. Allow others the personal space to retreat emotionally without turning the situation into a melodrama based on your fear of abandonment.

Sunday, May 31, 2009

Now if that isn't an omen I don't know what is!

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Why Social Work?

I met up with a friend on Friday and they asked why I hadn't updated my blog. I said I just couldn't think of anything to write about. Over the weekend I have been doing some thinking and this morning I decided what it would be.

The question I get asked the most is 'Why did you become a social worker?' and so I thought this may be a good place to get back into my writing.

I opened a word document and started to write. I had planned just a short piece, just the outline of why really but soon realised that I was, in fact, writing my whole work history. As I am 50 and have always worked, apart from taking a few months off when I had my children, you can imagine its not the short piece I set out to write so I have decided I am going to leave putting it on my blog for now and see where it takes me.

All I have to do now is thing is something else to write.