Sunday, May 31, 2009

Hope and Dreams

Have you ever had to make a decision that even just thinking about it makes you feel sick? Well I have one of those decisions to make. I know what I should do but just can't bring myself to do it. There is only one thing stopping me but that one thing is emotionally hard for me to take. I have talked to my friends about it and they all said go for it but........

I've been listening to all my favourite songs today and most of them are soppy ones and that has not helped the situation at all. I'm not sure what the hold is, although I know its there, that is stopping me and I know I won't be happy if I don't make the decision but I don't want to take the risk of being unhappy for a little while so the rest of my life will be a happy one. There is no future for me if I don't make the decision and I tell myself this each day but I still can't bring myself to make it. I seem to be living a life of hope and dreams but deep down I know I need to say enough is enough and decide.

I'll let you know when and if I've been brave enough to make it.


After writing the above I read my stars and below is what was said:

It might feel as if an era is coming to a close today, but it's really not anything that big. Still, your life is changing as you respond to the cooling of someone's energy. Keep in mind that everything goes through phases. Allow others the personal space to retreat emotionally without turning the situation into a melodrama based on your fear of abandonment.

Sunday, May 31, 2009

Now if that isn't an omen I don't know what is!


James Barlow said...

So does that mean I can count on your vote on Thursday?

Ladybristol said...

Hi James
Well no as I don't live in Redland. But if I did I would be questioning your statement
''That Bristolians are fundamentally sensible, intelligent people and that we should trust each other to live our lives peacefully and honourably.''
When was the last time you spent the day with a social worker in one of the many deprived area's of Bristol? If you had then you would know that this statement does not apply to many of the people involved with the service I provide!

I could give you an ear bashing about many other gripes I have with the council but that wouldn't achieve anything so I'll stop here.

I wish you luck in the elections