Addiction

Addiction comes in many forms. One definition is:

Addiction is the continued use of a mood altering substance or behaviour despite adverse consequences.

I have found myself addicted to one certain behaviour for the last 8 or so years. For nearly 2 years I have been trying to quit but every time I say 'This is the last time' I end up doing it again a few months down the line. I know that it is not doing me any good, although I do enjoy it, and there will never be a happy ending but for some reason I just can not let go.

Tonight, once again I have said 'This is the last time' and I am hoping that I do not relapse again but I think I know that I can not let go, ever, and will be writing this all again in a couple of months time.